Sometimes, still, I can feel this kind of future brush my skin like an operatic note tapering off somewhere. The rushing static of a runaway dream. Maybe for me, it’s enough to know that it has existed and will exist again, with or without my input. Even if it’s not existing in my body, that it is existing in bodies elsewhere. Bodies connected to mine. That one Kanye lyric “Everything I’m not made me everything I am.” Technology has been and is being midwifed by some pretty evil forces. I really think Trump and Thiel and Hegseth are unknowing and helpless vessels of trickster spirits they will never see or understand but nevertheless are. Can’t help but be. Was never their choice. To, what, bring down imperialism and the Western empire? Is this the subversion and chaos and yet in the end totally predicable story necessary to finally do it? I think so. I think this is the long-term equilibrium equilibriuming. So I think for modern technoscience, by virtue of it being itself, it will bring about its own end. We need not aid in its destruction. We already are. We have this Hobbesian way of being and we also have mycelial aspects of our being that aren’t systematized or normative right now. I’ve always thought about technology as having very real spiritual consequences. I’ll be the first to say it’s done a number on mine, for better and worse. I think we tend to think in this binary. Like, because we’ve only experienced “technology” within our current circumstances, we assume this is the only kind of reality it can bring about. This is the only way we can know it. But in the reading, technoshamanism reveals that no, our modern sensibilities of technology can very easily be a part of a different kind of reality that is more aligned with the social and biological, and all the other aspects of looking at the word -al ways, ways of being that is shamanism. And the reading is right that we exist within a very powerful engine that tends to just co-opt and consume beautiful things into itself, so how to avoid doing that. How to deepen and embody our understandings. And I liked that Oliveros part where she bodily connects to the tech around her. It is very much alive but none of us really feelingly know and that’s why we exploit and abuse our technology the way we do. At times, I feel really bad for it because I know it is suffering and I cannot feel its suffering. Because I am still yet another imperialized appendage that is losing its ability to feel and I want to depend and truly live out these understandings. There’s no lies you can tell here. All you can kind of do is be and try to be it and there’s no excuses otherwise. Your face is bare to God. And I want to read all of the authors that were listed more. So yeah. I also want to attach my poem I wrote a while ago because I didn’t know there was a word like entheogenesis which is cool. I like entheogens.
HOW I DECIDED TO STAY:
windows wink like radiant bullet holes
in the sun a city
becomes a sweaty crucible for
churning
bleeding angels
the water inside distilled into dark vein wine because
we could not speak
and then could not stop speaking
with the same magic the Bible cast when it coaxed the Word
from the black beginning
i am sure our language had never been spoken before
except by the Neandetherals
ultimate entheogen, love
will wash us inside
slowly
like a sky change
we will emerge as an emulsion and
dine at some last supper to congratulate the
champion incarnation and
model alchemist
i think of Aphrodite rising in that Botticelli painting
let the demons vomit in your body
watch the night spread its wings
and after it has finished dragging your eyebags across the land
let me tell you a very important thing
(the whole world is covered in butterflies)
let me tell you how you will survive
(we will watch the earth thaw into breathy morning
enough to forget that it used to be any other way)
i still see your voice
squiggling like broken caterpillars
remember (always remember)
faith is the gravity that holds the last stars together
all we need is a trick of photosynthesis
i am already the woman i want to become
I also like these questions:
1. How can artists embrace visionary consciousness?
2. How can art support entheogenesis (becoming divine
together) by joining ancient shamanic techniques and
contemporary technoscientific tools?
3. How can art catalyze greater awareness of what
Thich Nhat Hanh calls interbeing (the unity of all things)
to help heal the Earth?